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Monday, March 26, 2018

#loveyourboobs

#implantssuck ~ so why did I put these toxic bags inside of me & what led me to remove them...
#goodriddance #rip'april2016-march2018

First off, let me begin by saying how I had no idea how breast implants (even FDA approved, *sure ok) are toxic to the body & that many woman are getting sick from implants to this day. Thankfully, I had no signs of sickness. I could just feel my body telling me to get them out. I've always been in tune with my body & it was definitely feeling uncomfortable as well as causing issues. If you feel you have been going down some dark illness journey since you've had implants I highly suggest you check out a page on Facebook naned "Breast Implant IllnessI. I found this page because I was looking up explant of implants & what I found catapulted me to remove my implants. Implants are a foreign object & your body tries to protect itself from these which may/can lead to sicknesses. Many woman are becoming ill from implants, here is a site you can read through~
https://healingbreastimplantillness.com
My heart goes out to the women who have become ill so this is a part of my post because it does make sense. The issues I started to have most likely began here, my body protecting itself. I'm not trying to freak anyone out but I have known a few friends who became sick after implants & they had no idea why. A little food for thought, maybe find alternatives if achieving fuller breasts is something of importance. I was only able to learn about this topic after my implants becoming problematic & looking up 3 words "breast implant removal", finding information on the toxicity of implants wasn't in your face as readily as finding breast implants surgeons.

Secondly & why I looked up those 3 words are because I had "issues" from day one. My original surgeon told me I needed to go bigger than the size I was wanting. I only wanted a little fill. The doctor & his nurse told me it would look "funny" if I went smaller (now knowing this is all untrue). So I listened to the specialist as I assured him I wasn't looking to go bigger, just fuller. I lost some of my upper pole fullness from loss of extreme weight & had no idea at the time I was underweight, insert sad face. I only noticed this as I pulled photos of recent trying to figure out what my breast looked like before the implants. You'd think I would notice these things but I was also in a trial & error part of my life. So lesson here~ really give some time (years if you can) & thought to impactful decisions regarding your body. I did, in my sense of mind. If I hadn't had all these problems with the implants they probably would be inside of me to this day not even knowing about the toxicity. Even possibly getting sick later so all in all I'm happy the doctor went too big. Which leads me to my other issue regarding my doctor. He retired after my surgery & I was left with answers of "nothing can be done by him" since he left. I couldn't even get in to talk to him, I was told to message him as I did & nothing in return. He was not accountable or responsible for me since he was retired. I then met with the doctor that took over his office & I have so much respect for the surgeon that took over. He actually seemed to care about what was happening with me & I am grateful for him. After many many consultations my journey to explant was beginning. The main issues began when I started having pain. Mostly in my right breast. I could never convey the pain to friends. It just hurt. It felt as if my body was growing something over the implant, which is called a capsular contracture. It hurt at times when I moved a certain way or doing nothing at all. It's ironic now because as I'm writing this I'm trying to recall the pain but for the life of me I can't because the pain completely vanished. I also noticed my breast were starting to push up on my chest & sit way too high. It felt like bricks in my chest, often I had very uncomfortable itching on the inside of my chest wall. I tried to massage & my right breast would hurt from that & I could feel the bag, it seemed displaced. I was also very uncomfortable doing Bikram & certain activities. The fact that I gained weight (causing my breast to be bigger) & the multiple issues I had from day one had me searching of what my options were. I couldn't go on like this. My breast constantly hurting & they felt so enormous (which is not "me") finally led me to today.

Free, feeling fucking grateful my breasts look beautiful after (almost) 2 years of bags inside of me. I love my boobs once again. Something about natural breasts; the way they naturally sit, the softness, the look of them is sexy & beautiful, I can appreciate even more so now. I feel like a feather. I have the need to share my story because all in all I wish I had never gone through what I did, I don't carry regrets in life but that was a huge costly regret. My negative is positive to this day & I can only hope to encourage woman to find alternatives if you feel the need. 

Love your boobs #ilovemyboobs ... ~❥


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