I have admiration and profound L♥VE for all animals. So why did I eat meat? I ate this inorganic substance; this is what it remains after we have torn it from its unique essence of life because this is what I was informed of a "well balanced diet". I was living in my own hypocrisy, delusions of gratitude taken away from another life and soul. A living soul that has every right to live freely as we do must not be taken. My words may sting a little but it's the complex truth.
I have restrained from consuming any animal products the last 5 months now. I am feeling true love for myself more ever so lately than before. Not in a egocentric sort of way but a feeling of love for my body, a love that dances through me, a feeling of abundance. I can't quite characterize it but I have always had some kind of loving way towards myself but something has transferred completely. I am more aware, I am more in love with all things, everyone. I have a spiritual feeling that overwhelms me with blissful happiness. My creative juices have entwined much more freely. My thoughts are cloudless and I feel an inner security of L ♥VE. I carry more compassion, empathy and a feeling of artistic nature. I feel a compelling pull to write, dance and paint more.
Very graphic and descriptive narrative below, please tread softly.
I have a perception. This awareness has come from many nights watching food documentaries and videos. I started this slight journey with few videos, barely looking as I see desecration overtaken a sweet soul animal. My exploration grew to watching many more. The desire to attain more knowledge about what we put into our essence was growing with great aptitude. I cried; no, I wept with a heavy heart. My heart felt as if it had broken in half as I watched the torture and slaying of innocence. I felt something inside of me disquiet. I watched a pig cry for its life as he pulled at the ground knowing what was to come. This is one of the many formidable images that will affect me forever but I am grateful for knowing this. It has changed me in such a way that I feel like I have so much love inside of me; my heart, it overfills. Because of over populated animal product consumption innocent lives are being tortured and destroyed in such an inhumane way. My perception is this~ I think that the pure essence of an animal that dies in the way it does follows through the very steak you are eating. The sad and stolen energy has to become part of your energy. You are allowing affliction, torment and sorrow become a part of you. Is this why so many of us walk around in a zombie, irritated, moody or depressed state of manifestation? I believe from deep within my heart this is the truth. There is such disconnection within ourselves. I felt a lot of love in my 34 years of life but since my development I have evolved.
Why do we mortals feel the "need" to eat so much meat? We were taught, it’s been passed down from generations. It is what our ancestors consumed. There was not an abundant of food in times past, it made complete and logical sense. We have such a bountiful array of food in this day that we can choose to eat consciously. You CAN get enough protein from eating the right foods. I have muscle tone; I barely need to work out now as my eating habits have transformed my body. It has transfigured in the way it has never looked better, I can eat as much as I want. I feel improved, cleaner, more loving; I feel the ultimate euphoria. I am hopeful that someone’s life can be touched reading this. I'm not saying we all need to cut out every animal product but if we humans can just cut down HALF of what is being consumed now a day’s think of the difference. You can make a subtle change for the spirit of another. I cut down on animal products months ago but on Christmas I was so excited to "CH-eat" with a "yummy" ham but I cried as I sat there and ate it. We watched "the video" a few nights previous, the one that made me weep into the arms of my also whole food plant-based lover and all I could think about was that little pink pig. I feel tears welling up inside of me as I compose this. I literally felt a deep energy wash over me and all of a sudden the meat tasted so gamy. It was greasy like; similar to frog legs that I once tried because I thought "I will try everything once". That was a horrible feeling of eating the little frog, a feeling like the one time I had tried turtle soup. I hated myself for trying a spoonful of that. That was over 20 years ago and something I will at no time forget. Why did I feel horrible eating turtle and not meat, eggs, chicken?
Years of training.
You may be saying I can't give up meat but guess what; its, you won't. I wouldn't. I wasn't in place. It took me 34 years and a lot of investigating and attaining. It isn't as hard as you think, I don't even miss meat anymore, it taste so sad. I'm not going to lie, I eat an occasional cheese. I do love cheese but I prefer to purchase the grass-fed from another country in hopes it is safely guaranteed but I am living in my own misconception again. I barely eat cheese these days and I fancy one day it is foreign to me like that of meat. I can only aspire that I remain true to myself and maintain this journey. The less "cheats" the better I feel!
My healthy approach to life includes~ Bikram, yoga, mediation, Burlesque and eating a whole food plant-based diet. If you are interested in more knowledge, videos/documentaries I have watched or my eating habits I would love to share with you.
If you are not apt to discover and hopefully take in slight of what I say, that's acceptable. I was not ready until about 5 months ago. I just feel the desire and pull to write my journey through my new "in the pink" lifestyle transition. Please respect my blog and writing as this is my endeavor. I have been on dual sides of eating "the American diet" to eating a whole food plant-based diet. I just want to share my experience of feeling more in tune with my embodiment, consciousness and fortitude. I do not want to start a controversy, it is my reality.
If you actually read through this then I must say thank you. Thank you for your time and possibly considering a new way of treasuring your life, temple of embodiment and mind.
Love, Light and Laughter~ July Jennifer ♥
