a year of delicate pain & beauty ~❥

in those moments that are darkest

can you find your light.

scars and wounds you behold

burning marks of desire into your skin

and in this,

a delicate essence is flowered

deeply etched into the heart of you

September 2, 2015~ julyjennifer~❥

Fragile Heart

My heart may be fragile this journey but it is with abundant love and light. So if I feel you are without regarding spiritual energy in return I choose to not let you in. My heart and soul come first and foremost these days. This is a vow to myself and it is heart wrenching that I write this about family. Alone in a cold dark place last night has shown me the light, I want to return to my home and desire the comfort of my bed tonight. I want to be held and let out more tears. I am learning that my heart can only be protected by me. Myself alone, I must make decisions that may break now but in hopes the space will grow with a love that can be bonded once again. I can only seek what heals my heart.

With this breath I ask of you Universe;

let everything and all be free that shall be,

let all and everything enter at its own free flight. 

a vow by me...

May 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥

Lost Tribe~ Gamemaster♥

I'm in love with these words, song link is below~

"Embracing the goddess energy within yourselves

Will bring all of you to a new understanding and valuing of life

A vision that inspires you to live and love on Planet Earth

Like a priceless jewel buried in dark layers of soil and stone

Earth radiates her brilliant beauty into the caverns of space and time

Perhaps you are aware of those who watch over your home

And experience it as a place to visit and play with reality

You are becoming aware of yourself as a game master

Imagine Earth restored to her real beauty

Steady trees seem to brush the deep blue sky

The clouds billow to form majestic peaks

The songs of birds fill the air

Creating a symphony upon symphony

The goddess is calling for an honoring

Of what she allows to be created

Through the form of strength and blood

Those who own the planet are learning about love"

Lost Tribe – Gamemaster - Original

January 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Grateful For...♥

...in no special order.

Falling in Love with my friends, they are all so beautiful in so many ways.

Falling in Love with all the beautiful men in my life that I shared an intimate relation with. Intimacy holds onto the heart forever.

Family; I don't have a very big family but we have the strongest bond and most honest relationship.

Losing myself over certain times in my life because only then was I able to go a little deeper and find myself once again. What grows inside of me...

Finding yoga, Bikram, meditation and most cherished, "spirituality" that dances with my heart.

Music. Finding art, finding my words once again to write. Finding dance again that makes my heart sing.

Heartbreak; because I truly believe it makes you deeply connected and centered with yourself. If you can realize sometimes it's happiness to let go.

My felines that have sauntered their way into my heart and where, forever they will remain.

Forgiveness, a quality I sometimes believe is my downfall beause I forgive so easily which can be painful later. But without this, are we able to even move on.

Friends and Laughter, a combo that's dangerous for many happy memories!

The Moon, the Stars, the Ocean; I'm so wrapped up in you.

Me...because the only one that can center and find a true love for oneself (at all times) is, yourself.

   and most of all..

Life...always pondering deep romantic thoughts...

August 11, 2014~ July Jennifer ♥

Favorite Quotes♥

{My Favorite Quotes Throughout my Existence on Mother Earth...♥}

Please Spay & Neuter♥

And Hand in Hand

On the Edge of the Sand
They Danced by the Light of
The Moon
The Moon
The Moon
They Danced by the Light of The Moon...
~The Owl & The Pussycat♥ 

''We come alone and leave alone, but within that time we create lasting memories with our loved ones; that will forever bind us in this world and beyond'' - unknown♥ 

a lion sleeps in the heart of every brave man~Turkish Proverb {or Woman}♥  

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly♥ 

develop a mind that is vast like the water...rest in a mind like vast water~Buddha♥ 

As we let our light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same~Marianne Williamson♥ 

The Butterfly Counts Not Months But Moments, And Has Time Enough~Rabindranath Tagore♥ 

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom~Anaïs Nin♥

True love begins when nothing is looked for in return~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry♥

Haiku Poem~ Nature Beautifully Wrapped♥

you are a Goddess 

of profound beauty, I shall 

honour your essence

2012~ July Jennifer ♥

Haiku Poem~ Beyond♥

Into my dreams lies 

the majestic, there awaits 

a magical world 

January 2012~ July Jennifer ♥

My Secrets Lie

There’s a new boy in town;

his scent of salty sweetness

and eyes 
that of a vast sea

burns through the depths of my heart.

His touch is a soft memory,

fresh upon my skin 
like a hot summer day.

A kiss 
of fervor and rapture

enfolds a desire of profound yearning.

There’s sand in between my toes

and a light fragrance lies in the air

resembling that of plumeria heaven.

A moist heat radiates my skin

and a sense of vulnerability 
pushes through my soul.

Tugging at my heart strings.

He rides on a set of waves.

Our hearts meld into one;

not through a simplistic touch

yet through the eyes of two souls.

Separated once;

two souls found each other

through the stars,
through the pull of the moon
and that vast sea.

Two lost souls;

bound by dancing lights
broken apart

and love was lost at sea.

November 22, 2003~ July Jennifer ♥

Amore, Amour and Love

I have an anecdote to tell. It is full of lovers, little mysteries, heavy hearts, anguish, desecration, exuberance and many moments of L♥VE. I will dance around this journal blog from my history past to now with the in-between. I dream you will follow me...♥

My favorite word~ L♥VE. I am conscious of this word on an everyday footing. I've cultivated this one fleeting word into the depths of my spiritual being and long for prosperity. The abundance of one word is the relic of my vitality and I fancy such an essence of a simple phrase. I'm not saying it's transparent, we know that. It has many allusions and comes in many altered manifestations. Entwine with me as I saunter through my reflection of my forgone growth, in this moment of present and my dreams of the destined. Lets travel together, souls touching and cultivate one word~ L♥VE...

with love~ july jennifer ♥