homemade apple Moonlit Dreams ~❥: August 2014

Monday, August 11, 2014

Grateful For...♥

...in no special order.

Falling in Love with my friends, they are all so beautiful in so many ways.

Falling in Love with all the beautiful men in my life that I shared an intimate relation with. Intimacy holds onto the heart forever.

Family; I don't have a very big family but we have the strongest bond and most honest relationship.

Losing myself over certain times in my life because only then was I able to go a little deeper and find myself once again. What grows inside of me...

Finding yoga, Bikram, meditation and most cherished, "spirituality" that dances with my heart.

Music. Finding art, finding my words once again to write. Finding dance again that makes my heart sing.

Heartbreak; because I truly believe it makes you deeply connected and centered with yourself. If you can realize sometimes it's happiness to let go.

My felines that have sauntered their way into my heart and where, forever they will remain.

Forgiveness, a quality I sometimes believe is my downfall beause I forgive so easily which can be painful later. But without this, are we able to even move on.

Friends and Laughter, a combo that's dangerous for many happy memories!

The Moon, the Stars, the Ocean; I'm so wrapped up in you.

Me...because the only one that can center and find a true love for oneself (at all times) is, yourself.

   and most of all..

Life...always pondering deep romantic thoughts...

August 11, 2014~ July Jennifer ♥

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Release Me

passive love affair
behind a mask you wear
no more weeping soul
release me from the anchor
that restrained
so many untold years

I am no longer yours
to keep
so why do I still weep
your heavy anguish
be stills my heart
no more to bestow
nevertheless a love
that suffocated many moons ago

your words keep me hostage
to your wall
I am bound
I can no longer be
inside your knotted rope
I leave only my finger prints
an outline
of all that have I carried for you

 July Jennifer 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Her Last Breath

unrelenting breath.
Merely a single exhalation
would evoke all vulnerability;
lungs collapse.
She would all at once
let go,
tears streaming down uncontrollably.
It wouldn't surrender
until he held her head with his hands,
only then he finds her exposed.

There was no reasoning,
just abandon.
She was exhausted,
tired of weeping
being consumed from sadness;
imprisoned for years.

Can you embrace her,
Can't you just adore her.
Take her within you,
never let go.
Send goose bumps down her spine
like she once knew.
Butterflies fluttering...

She's apprehensive of any deep inhalation;
she's drowning
and not sure when to relinquish.
It was all so intricate
bound into years of defiance.
She's heartsick,
the pieces are falling
can't you see her tears.
A love bound by reckless care,
she doesn't know how to compose her thoughts.

Isolated tears fall from her face
and the moonlight shines upon her features
as reflections run through her spirit;
Can't you just take her into you...

Can't you behold,
in a time to come you intend to perceive.
What was once the moonlight upon her face;
the face of wonder and love,
was the one that gave you deepened breath.
The radiance that will illuminate your way...

August 7, 2014~ July Jennifer ♥

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Butterflies are Dying...

She's a single butterfly
 fluttering about,
 to the rhythm of her own wings.
She'll fly with courage and dignity;
 only then,
her light will radiate
 what it once was.
She'll fly and love freely now,
 for the chains have been lifted.
She is no longer a prisoner in her own world...
July 31, 2014~ July Jennifer ♥