homemade apple Moonlit Dreams ~❥: 2015

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Pieces of Me ~❥

Listen to the advice of others with an open heart
but in this, we are traveling our own journey...

make the right decisions,
make mistakes.
be vulnerable,
you may have heart breaks
but in that, you may find a beautiful muse that will linger upon your lips forever.
laugh with friends,
spend time alone,
wander in between dreams
& embrace your treasure,
 the gift of life & love
 November 19, 2015 July Jennifer ~❥

Saturday, October 17, 2015

one time...

In the clutches of his hands,
my bleeding heart beats delicately...
for his soul is maddening
& fleshy bites
devour me to reckless abandon.
In the beauty of light, 
to soften your soul
amidst wild & fire
was only a moment,
for all I see is a ravaging savage...

September 27, 2015 July Jennifer~❥

Sunday, September 27, 2015

Foreign Lover

that night,
proclaiming birthday year
number thirty eight
two souls collide.

the way your hand
beholds the small of my arch,
a charming German accent
and a face that favors handsome
keep me intrigued.

your masculine hands
glide over my vintage slip
and I yearn for more...
here on this dance floor
a tender kiss you give me
with lips,
I can kiss for many moons
and I get lost
inside the heat of you

sweet sounds in the air,
souls colliding around us
breathe ethereal
for I am wrapped into your embrace
and your kiss has me hostage

you are afar
yet your gentle nature
and loving ways
keep me sweetly engaged...

September 27, 2015~ July Jennifer~❥

Sunday, September 20, 2015

a year of delicate pain & beauty ~❥

in those moments that are darkest
can you find your light.

scars and wounds you behold
burning marks of desire into your skin
and in this,
a delicate essence is flowered
deeply etched into the heart of you
September 2, 2015~ julyjennifer~❥

Thursday, September 17, 2015

you hold my heart captive ~❥

in this room of afterglow
and notes serenading the air,
you lie on my heart;
the one in which you hold captive,
and throughout many moonlit nights.

I feel this sense of love.
an affection I want to give;
 to you,
 and genuinely.
I long to protect you, kiss you sweetly, cherish you, embrace you lovingly.
this is a love in that,
embarks a deliacte journey for me
 and for once,
I deeply want this.

you fall into slumber fast
and I feel the sensation of your hair flowing through my fingers,
to touch your skin
as my hand glides up your masculine arm
is all that makes me happy;
 right then, right there
right now.

bestow upon me,
your lips
your mysterious eyes
your sweet voice
your gaze, your touch, your aroma
 your truth in vulnerability.
bestow upon me,
on cold nights
and summer lights
and fall colors
and spring flowers
and many moons beckoning.
therefore, a part a of me, I will give.
I have never fully devoted to anyone
yet, I feel this sensation toward you.
I feel safeguarded with you
 and all I want,
is to love you freely.

September 16, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Monday, August 24, 2015

I dreamt of a black stallion...

a stallion on the night
runs free in eager flight,
restless in day of light
you are all, I just might

fierce in strength, your soul
my heart you stole,
I sense a mystic pull
into a dreamland of nothing dull

a distant time long ago,
two lovers in afterglow
found each other, even though
all they have here, is tomorrow

dimly lit in the tavern corner
an abandoned piano...and all of her,
this dreamy dancer
compels a stallion to purr

above the sun kissed horizon
a glass of aged bourbon
to your lips taste,
kiss me with your poison

to take flight into your wild fire
and an eager kiss to desire
embarks a journey to transpire
you are all, I admire

lips of crimson
and a delicate scent of jasmine,
a kitten is smitten
so saddle up~black stallion

a stallion runs wild in the night
into a dreamland of celestials starlight,
a lovers knight
captivates her by moonlight
you are all, I just might

August 24, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Ravenous Heart

guarded lover eternally pussyfoot'ing
and no matter,
those words echoed into the night
of Jupiter and Venus transcending the Moon.

"I love you"
first spoken upon Your lips.

intentions unsure
all revealed your affirmation,
transparent and declared from You.

wounded heart,
under lock and key
lost at sea
you'll never see
the vulnerability I have for you.
an ego that dwells upon reassurance;
I promise you,
 You were king
and now, only a beggar.
lost in gloomy nights
and starlit gazes
stands a Knight that fears abandon.
I see all of you,
the broken you embody
can only be consumed by hungry wolves
and lost souls.

Vampires in the night
stole the one I love
by reason of,
a cold blood
 runs through his soul

July 2015 ~ July Jennifer ❥
I have a little bit of a dark side & a fascination with Vampires so this poem resonated with that side of me

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Jupiter, Venus & the Moon

negotiations rule
with Jupiter rising
a transcendent triangle
of Venus
and the Moon

by your embrace
stolen bites
souls colliding
and stars losing their light
and rosy lips
and dewy flesh
I get lost
inside the heat of you

fingers gliding
over velvety skin
you dust my heart
with your affirmation
that breaks inside
a lonely night
of lovers
and hungry eyes

a summer solstice night June 21, 2015
June 28, 2015  ~ July Jennifer ❥

Sunday, June 14, 2015


she is in the heated shower...

sultry water cast forth
 a sexual energy
through to her bones.
she closes her eyes
 as the dewy heat
makes her skin
crimson rose.
he is below her,
she engages his eyes
as he looks at her with longing,
 all making her heart rapid.
heart shaped drops
 fall unto his face,
his lips
tenderly disappear
into her golden fleshy skin;
her breath caught.
his fingers graze
over perfect nipples;
cupping her breast
 her back arches
into a backward bend.
his hand reaching behind her
grabbing her taught round bottom;
his kiss,
soft and delicate.
her body quivers
 as he taste all of her...
2014 ~July Jennifer ~❥

I feel a little shy posting this one but it has been a favorite secret poem. A very special soul could read this & be right there with me. Because he reached inside my soul & I shared myself ~❥

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Sweet Love

thank you for today,
 feeling such an intimate moment
unfolded all the love I still carry for you.

such vulnerability
 dusted my heart with love;
sweet love.

always you,
 shall remain in my heart;
my great love.
thank you for your gentle nature
 this day,
it resonated all the reason
I shall cherish and love you forever.

 A promise etched in the night sky
for you, sweet love

June 2, 2015 ~ July Jennifer ~❥

This Year's Love {2008} ~❥
you picked this song for our wedding & it will hold a special place in my heart forever, just as you will.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Last Moon

Last Moon
 I released you
yet you leave a lingering 
    taste upon my lips,
 stolen butterfly moments
and karmic love in my heart.

To let you go
 is to free my heart,
for now.
My heart releases you,
 no more gripping claws
inside a bleeding heart,
 just whispers goodbye...

May 3, 2015~ July Jennifer 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015


 he's intoxicating her.

is it the depth of his soul
 or those lips to kiss
in the moonlight.

a light runs wild
 into her heart,
across that vast sea
 thirsting for more.

what is this,
 May 19, 2015 ~ July Jennifer ❥

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Haiku Poem~ Searching❥

how am I to know,
if you behold the compass.
cast me a signal

May 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

Fragile Heart

My heart may be fragile this journey but it is with abundant love and light. So if I feel you are without regarding spiritual energy in return I choose to not let you in. My heart and soul come first and foremost these days. This is a vow to myself and it is heart wrenching that I write this about family. Alone in a cold dark place last night has shown me the light, I want to return to my home and desire the comfort of my bed tonight. I want to be held and let out more tears. I am learning that my heart can only be protected by me. Myself alone, I must make decisions that may break now but in hopes the space will grow with a love that can be bonded once again. I can only seek what heals my heart.

With this breath I ask of you Universe;
let everything and all be free that shall be,
let all and everything enter at its own free flight. 

a vow by me...
May 10, 2015~ July Jennifer 

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

A Heart that Weeps

no longer
will I be held
in the pain you carry,
like an endless journey
resonating in the darkness
of your thoughts.
echoing in your rage
shooting daggers into my heart,
a heart that once loved you

you scorn me
parallel to many moons ago
and many moons shared.
I ask of you,
let me in
as something other than your lover.
you leave my heart aching
as your dialect
bruises an abounding love.
an affection
dying in the flame
that once burned beautifully
yet now,
resembling a bleeding heart

in all the moments
we still share
I weep in your presence
yet your heart remains
a bitter taste.
I can see in your eyes;
all you say is nothingness
as a tear
finds it way out of my eyes
and my heart holding fortitude.
I have to proclaim;
setting all free,
the devotion I carry for you
by virtue of the torment you keep
is no longer about me.

April 28, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

a song we share~ "Stolen Car" Bruce Springsteen 

Saturday, April 18, 2015

yours to keep

outside my bedroom window
Venus illuminates the way,
like a dancing butterfly
in the midnight sky
we are bound,
intertwined into one

your gentle nature echoes
through the strength you possess
as you unfold me,
resembling origami
you hold me captive
like a delicate butterfly

for moments resonating
with fueled passion,
I cherish
upon my lips
secrets to keep

as you light the way
to a treasured box,
a sweet embrace
a touch;
flowering a beautiful mark
inside my soul

April 12, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥ 

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

missing him already
how he tangles my heart
but every moment into a web of ecstasy

April 15, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥

Thursday, April 2, 2015


to go back
 into time
just a couple...
yes please
 to feel you...

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Love Letter to Him...

If you are indulging in this love letter
then I know,
what I have felt all along
is true.
The stars are connected,
just not yet aligned.

Behind all the smoke and mirrors
typed words written
and a heart that weighs heavy,
you stand there
seeking to find a lover
to rescue your heart.

My head is remarkably blurred,
like that of a full moon
dusted in clouds.
I cannot find the words when I am with you,
I keep them distantly sacred.
Filtered through mystic dialogue
everything becomes unraveled and obscured.
Perhaps you are finding truth in reading my confession.

If these words echo inside of you
then I know,
my adoration for you is safeguarded.
Behind smoke and mirrors
a kiss that lingers in restless nights
and a heart that remains guarded,
I stand there
embracing your gentle hands.
Your snuggle rekindling the warmth that exudes from my flesh.

I endure,
until the day to come...
I see the light in your mysterious eyes once again. Eyes in which hold my heart captive yet allowing the butterflies to flutter freely. I indulge in your aroma that drives me into a wild feline. When I hear the sound of your voice, your laugh. The echo that holds my heart inside of you. Your mischievous smile. Your kisses tucked inside of my soul as you kiss my head deep in the middle of the night, more than once and now knowing it was not by chance. Nights we shared. Your tender embrace on those same nights, our fit. Your gaze upon me, I resemble dreamy but your admiration permeates through my days like that of a movie segment. That moment you rested your head atop mine and take in my aroma, I can sense you taking all of me in. A kiss, your kiss. My lips locked with yours and passionate love bite. The kiss that electrifies through our essence. The affinity, not a single word spoken; no more than harmony filling the sensual air, mystified. Your caress all encompassing over the skin you crave and yearn. To hear your deep breaths as I lie on your chest, your heart beating. You, just sensing your strength next to me.
Perhaps in a time to come we stop searching for what at present we feel a pull towards. Reclaim a passionate love that started. Therefore this full moon, I let it all be infinite. I deliver to you a compass that holds my treasured heart for you to pursue what is desired. Perhaps one day, the moon encompasses and the celestial's align.

If you see these words
then you know,
the magnitude of love and admiration
that I hold captive in my heart.
Behind smoke and mirrors
you are
that knight in shining Armour and I am yours to be wild with.

March 5, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

Monday, February 23, 2015

my captivating moon...

beneath a blue crescent moon
your kiss lingered upon my lips

A lovers romance unravels.

As I lie there on your bed
your vigorous 
yet gentle in nature hands
caress the lower arch;
the arch you love to kiss.
I take all of your essence in, 
all encompassing heart beating
and your exhalation profound.
A lovers heart
deep within your soul.
Apparent in the days
rustling in the trees,
your gentle embrace envelopes me.
Spiraling me,
right out from under my toes,
into a moonlit reflection.
A glow of beaming light
right into my soul
and into your heart.

February 21, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Monday, February 9, 2015


Light subdued
time distantly ticking
he has her captive.

One last inhalation
before, all of her vulnerability
what's been captive.
For countless moments
in a state of ecstasy,
she is liberated.
Finger to rosed lips,
an arched back 
and his essence;
his smell
electrifies all of her,
and she is his.

She completely surrenders
for him.
For so long,
in times she withheld.
Though tonight
in this moment,
in this room
was set free.

She was flushed 
with profound emotion.
While in that moment,
she gave into him...

February 8, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Lovers in the Moonlight

he sat
 at the end
  of the low bed.
head tilted,
 gazing up at her
  with his mischievous
smoldering eyes;
the weakening
of her
  in ways
ever unknown.

 in vintage
white silk
  her delicate nipples
at its peak.
he graces
 her leg
  with devotion;
 around her, his hands
   velvety thighs.
her hands
  the wild of his hair.
incandescent candles
sound of soul
 penetrating the air.

a glimpse
  his soul,
a heartbeat
through her
upon his head
as he rest against her.

a lovers
  in the moonlight.
they hold
 the celestial's
 and the universe
at their fingertips
resonating with ancient divinity.

February 2, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Dark Nights

His heart is guarded
Her heart is guarded
It's a forbidden dance through ecstasy
Music spirals by candlelight
And her voice echoes in whispers
Through a kiss 
And into his heart

January 27, 2015~ July Jennifer♥

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Captive Butterflies

captive butterflies
into the depths
of her belly,
yet caged.

so eager to flutter
for the lover,
she calls

she is bound
by a poetic love story.

tongue tied
and bitten lips
a lovers dance.

are bestowed, 
the winged beauties
are claimed
under lock and key.

a compass is given
to her raging heart.
Unlocked by
the mysterious lover.

only then,
the reflection of the moon
will reflect
from her watery eyes
into His 

January 17, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Saturday, January 10, 2015


Yearning his smell, what it does to her.

Craving and wild feline;
until the day beckons,
that she can wrap her legs 
around him
and knead him like a kitty...

January 8, 2015~ July Jennifer 10:37am♥ 

Lost Tribe~ Gamemaster♥

I'm in love with these words, song link is below~

"Embracing the goddess energy within yourselves
Will bring all of you to a new understanding and valuing of life
A vision that inspires you to live and love on Planet Earth
Like a priceless jewel buried in dark layers of soil and stone

Earth radiates her brilliant beauty into the caverns of space and time
Perhaps you are aware of those who watch over your home
And experience it as a place to visit and play with reality
You are becoming aware of yourself as a game master

Imagine Earth restored to her real beauty
Steady trees seem to brush the deep blue sky
The clouds billow to form majestic peaks
The songs of birds fill the air

Creating a symphony upon symphony
The goddess is calling for an honoring
Of what she allows to be created
Through the form of strength and blood
Those who own the planet are learning about love"
January 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Letting Go...

the other day I was in tears. the same news came in different form. when a new year was beckoning, a new beginning was to have you.
all I can hang onto are my memories of being a little girl with him. 

tears streaming down my face and my heart bursting with so much sadness and a lonely feeling of; why a father "couldn't" be a father a daughter needed. taking care of him after moving out at 15 and having no other parent made me realize a heartache of why I kept hanging on...

after so many isolated tears over years upon years, having your heart ripped out over and over again I have to find solitude when to let go. Let compassion be that of "understanding" and learn to love is to let go. I've been pulling apart for the past few years but there was always that lingering hope, wish...I have so much compassion in my heart for him but I also have compassion for myself and I love myself. I know hanging on just keeps me from moving forward. I know to love myself and let my light bright again is~ releasing all that's toxic...

always in my heart, a part of me I am you
January 4, 2015~ July Jennifer ♥