Haiku Poem~ Searching❥

how am I to know,

if you behold the compass.

cast me a signal

May 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

   

Fragile Heart

My heart may be fragile this journey but it is with abundant love and light. So if I feel you are without regarding spiritual energy in return I choose to not let you in. My heart and soul come first and foremost these days. This is a vow to myself and it is heart wrenching that I write this about family. Alone in a cold dark place last night has shown me the light, I want to return to my home and desire the comfort of my bed tonight. I want to be held and let out more tears. I am learning that my heart can only be protected by me. Myself alone, I must make decisions that may break now but in hopes the space will grow with a love that can be bonded once again. I can only seek what heals my heart.

With this breath I ask of you Universe;

let everything and all be free that shall be,

let all and everything enter at its own free flight. 

a vow by me...

May 10, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥

A Heart that Weeps

no longer
will I be held
hostage
in the pain you carry,
suffocated
like an endless journey
resonating in the darkness
of your thoughts.
bitter'
echoing in your rage
shooting daggers into my heart,
a heart that once loved you
hopelessly

you scorn me
parallel to many moons ago
and many moons shared.
I ask of you,
let me in
as something other than your lover.
you leave my heart aching
as your dialect
bruises an abounding love.
an affection
dying in the flame
that once burned beautifully
yet now,
resembling a bleeding heart

in all the moments
we still share
I weep in your presence
yet your heart remains
a bitter taste.
I can see in your eyes;
all you say is nothingness
as a tear
finds it way out of my eyes
and my heart holding fortitude.
realizing
I have to proclaim;
setting all free,
the devotion I carry for you
by virtue of the torment you keep
is no longer about me.

April 28, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥

a song we share~ "Stolen Car" Bruce Springsteen 

http://open.spotify.com/track/6iXyMQAaSfGWe1DmRcf0D5

yours to keep

outside my bedroom window
Venus illuminates the way,
like a dancing butterfly
in the midnight sky
we are bound,
intertwined into one

your gentle nature echoes
through the strength you possess
as you unfold me,
resembling origami
you hold me captive
like a delicate butterfly

for moments resonating
with fueled passion,
I cherish
upon my lips
secrets to keep

as you light the way
to a treasured box,
a sweet embrace
a touch;
flowering a beautiful mark
inside my soul

April 12, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥ 

❥

missing him already
how he tangles my heart
but every moment into a web of ecstasy

April 15, 2015~ July Jennifer ❥

3/31

to go back

 into time

just a couple...

yes please
 to feel you...❥

Love Letter to Him...

If you are indulging in this love letter
then I know,
what I have felt all along
is true.
The stars are connected,
just not yet aligned.

Behind all the smoke and mirrors
typed words written
and a heart that weighs heavy,
you stand there
seeking to find a lover
to rescue your heart.

My head is remarkably blurred,
like that of a full moon
dusted in clouds.
I cannot find the words when I am with you,
I keep them distantly sacred.
Filtered through mystic dialogue
everything becomes unraveled and obscured.
Perhaps you are finding truth in reading my confession.

If these words echo inside of you
then I know,
my adoration for you is safeguarded.
Behind smoke and mirrors
a kiss that lingers in restless nights
and a heart that remains guarded,
I stand there
embracing your gentle hands.
Your snuggle rekindling the warmth that exudes from my flesh.

I endure,

until the day to come...

I see the light in your mysterious eyes once again. Eyes in which hold my heart captive yet allowing the butterflies to flutter freely. I indulge in your aroma that drives me into a wild feline. When I hear the sound of your voice, your laugh. The echo that holds my heart inside of you. Your mischievous smile. Your kisses tucked inside of my soul as you kiss my head deep in the middle of the night, more than once and now knowing it was not by chance. Nights we shared. Your tender embrace on those same nights, our fit. Your gaze upon me, I resemble dreamy but your admiration permeates through my days like that of a movie segment. That moment you rested your head atop mine and take in my aroma, I can sense you taking all of me in. A kiss, your kiss. My lips locked with yours and passionate love bite. The kiss that electrifies through our essence. The affinity, not a single word spoken; no more than harmony filling the sensual air, mystified. Your caress all encompassing over the skin you crave and yearn. To hear your deep breaths as I lie on your chest, your heart beating. You, just sensing your strength next to me.

Perhaps in a time to come we stop searching for what at present we feel a pull towards. Reclaim a passionate love that started. Therefore this full moon, I let it all be infinite. I deliver to you a compass that holds my treasured heart for you to pursue what is desired. Perhaps one day, the moon encompasses and the celestial's align.

If you see these words
then you know,
the magnitude of love and admiration
that I hold captive in my heart.
Behind smoke and mirrors
you are

that knight in shining Armour and I am yours to be wild with.

March 5, 2015~ July Jennifer ~❥