Chloé Selene ♥

sometimes, pussycats just get their way...♥

My Little Skittle♥

She's the sweetest little pea, with a perfect little round bottom and dimples that will melt your heart. 
She followed me around like a little darling; 
I would dance and this sweetheart would follow, 
I would cry and this angelic soul would hug me, 
I needed a friend and this precious creature would be my companion. 
Her giggle is infectious and she continually makes me laugh;
she is always ready for any shenanigans I have mustered up. 
We shared skittles. I get the red, purple & green; she gets the rest. 
We shared childhood memories; 

playing pretend, dressing up and being silly girls. 

She comes with a Princess disposition but don’t let her fool you, 

she has the strength of a vigorous tiger and a heart made of tenderheartedness. 
I admire her. 
We have the sacred bond of sisterly love, that bestows warm fuzzies in my heart.
Above all, 
we have a love that evolves into heartfelt memories that bestows love upon my heart. 

I will keep her locked into my heart.

She will always be my shelter;
my confidant, 
my secret keeper,
my memory maker
and forevermore baby sissy.

April 1, 2013~ July Jennifer ♥

Recesses of the Heart♥

I have admiration and profound L♥VE for all animals. So why did I eat meat? I ate this inorganic substance; this is what it remains after we have torn it from its unique essence of life because this is what I was informed of a "well balanced diet". I was living in my own hypocrisy, delusions of gratitude taken away from another life and soul. A living soul that has every right to live freely as we do must not be taken. My words may sting a little but it's the complex truth. 

I have restrained from consuming any animal products the last 5 months now. I am feeling true love for myself more ever so lately than before. Not in a egocentric sort of way but a feeling of love for my body, a love that dances through me, a feeling of abundance. I can't quite characterize it but I have always had some kind of loving way towards myself but something has transferred completely. I am more aware, I am more in love with all things, everyone. I have a spiritual feeling that overwhelms me with blissful happiness. My creative juices have entwined much more freely. My thoughts are cloudless and I feel an inner security of L ♥VE. I carry more compassion, empathy and a feeling of artistic nature. I feel a compelling pull to write, dance and paint more.

Very graphic and descriptive narrative below, please tread softly. 

I have a perception. This awareness has come from many nights watching food documentaries and videos. I started this slight journey with few videos, barely looking as I see desecration overtaken a sweet soul animal. My exploration grew to watching many more. The desire to attain more knowledge about what we put into our essence was growing with great aptitude. I cried; no, I wept with a heavy heart. My heart felt as if it had broken in half as I watched the torture and slaying of innocence. I felt something inside of me disquiet. I watched a pig cry for its life as he pulled at the ground knowing what was to come. This is one of the many formidable images that will affect me forever but I am grateful for knowing this. It has changed me in such a way that I feel like I have so much love inside of me; my heart, it overfills. Because of over populated animal product consumption innocent lives are being tortured and destroyed in such an inhumane way. My perception is this~ I think that the pure essence of an animal that dies in the way it does follows through the very steak you are eating. The sad and stolen energy has to become part of your energy. You are allowing affliction, torment and sorrow become a part of you. Is this why so many of us walk around in a zombie, irritated, moody or depressed state of manifestation? I believe from deep within my heart this is the truth. There is such  disconnection within ourselves. I felt a lot of love in my 34 years of life but since my development I have evolved. 

Why do we mortals feel the "need" to eat so much meat? We were taught, it’s been passed down from generations. It is what our ancestors consumed. There was not an abundant of food in times past, it made complete and logical sense. We have such a bountiful array of food in this day that we can choose to eat consciously. You CAN get enough protein from eating the right foods. I have muscle tone; I barely need to work out now as my eating habits have transformed my body. It has transfigured in the way it has never looked better, I can eat as much as I want. I feel improved, cleaner, more loving; I feel the ultimate euphoria. I am hopeful that someone’s life can be touched reading this. I'm not saying we all need to cut out every animal product but if we humans can just cut down HALF of what is being consumed now a day’s think of the difference. You can make a subtle change for the spirit of another. I cut down on animal products months ago but on Christmas I was so excited to "CH-eat" with a "yummy" ham but I cried as I sat there and ate it. We watched "the video" a few nights previous, the one that made me weep into the arms of my also whole food plant-based lover and all I could think about was that little pink pig. I feel tears welling up inside of me as I compose this. I literally felt a deep energy wash over me and all of a sudden the meat tasted so gamy. It was greasy like; similar to frog legs that I once tried because I thought "I will try everything once". That was a horrible feeling of eating the little frog, a feeling like the one time I had tried turtle soup. I hated myself for trying a spoonful of that. That was over 20 years ago and something I will at no time forget. Why did I feel horrible eating turtle and not meat, eggs, chicken? 

Years of training. 

You may be saying I can't give up meat but guess what; its, you won't. I wouldn't. I wasn't in place. It took me 34 years and a lot of investigating and attaining. It isn't as hard as you think, I don't even miss meat anymore, it taste so sad. I'm not going to lie, I eat an occasional cheese. I do love cheese but I prefer to purchase the grass-fed from another country in hopes it is safely guaranteed but I am living in my own misconception again. I barely eat cheese these days and I fancy one day it is foreign to me like that of meat. I can only aspire that I remain true to myself and maintain this journey. The less "cheats" the better I feel! 

My healthy approach to life includes~ Bikram, yoga, mediation, Burlesque and eating a whole food plant-based diet. If you are interested in more knowledge, videos/documentaries I have watched or my eating habits I would love to share with you. 

If you are not apt to discover and hopefully take in slight of what I say, that's acceptable. I was not ready until about 5 months ago. I just feel the desire and pull to write my journey through my new "in the pink" lifestyle transition. Please respect my blog and writing as this is my endeavor. I have been on dual sides of eating "the American diet" to eating a whole food plant-based diet. I just want to share my experience of feeling more in tune with my embodiment, consciousness and fortitude. I do not want to start a controversy, it is my reality. 

If you actually read through this then I must say thank you. Thank you for your time and possibly considering a new way of treasuring your life, temple of embodiment and mind. 

Love, Light and Laughter~ July Jennifer ♥

Amore, Amour and Love

I have an anecdote to tell. It is full of lovers, little mysteries, heavy hearts, anguish, desecration, exuberance and many moments of L♥VE. I will dance around this journal blog from my history past to now with the in-between. I dream you will follow me...♥

My favorite word~ L♥VE. I am conscious of this word on an everyday footing. I've cultivated this one fleeting word into the depths of my spiritual being and long for prosperity. The abundance of one word is the relic of my vitality and I fancy such an essence of a simple phrase. I'm not saying it's transparent, we know that. It has many allusions and comes in many altered manifestations. Entwine with me as I saunter through my reflection of my forgone growth, in this moment of present and my dreams of the destined. Lets travel together, souls touching and cultivate one word~ L♥VE...

with love~ july jennifer ♥

July Jennifer Quotes♥

{My silly words of Love, Dreams and Desires...♥}

Evolving through a transition like that of a caterpillar to moth. Finding my wings again so I can light up the night sky in flight to the moon...10/13♥

sometimes pussycats just get their way...♥

the Moon, the Ocean collide in a parallel Universe as my body longs for your kiss. your eyes like vast Sea and I dream of you...♥

I am the Moon and you are my Ocean. My body yearns for you and awaits {you} to enter my world of darkness and seduction, a unity of lust and passion...♥
my heart opens to your light...♥

your Love found a way in my heart...you are my Love, you are my Dreams, you are eternally locked in my heart...♥

my heart opens to your light...♥

the moon calls us into the night & the stars lead the way into a dream of desires♥

our Love bound by the Stars. you are locked in my heart♥

being loved is the greatest treasure one can have♥

Always remember to look up at the sky and deep into your heart...♥

a love bound by the stars has a pull of the vast sea...♥

I swim in your blue ocean & I drown in your passion♥

there is no time where I stop loving you...for a very special soul 10/29/11♥

moon pull
a love found.
ocean crashes
a tear falls from her face
her love lost.
the red moon beckons
a beating heart in the distance.
she sees the light
light of the moon
all is calm 12/10

where I lie in the heart of your eyes, I feel compelled. sand in my sheets and a special place kept under lock and key, for you inside my heart. the moon tonight is a beautiful golden dream...Harvest Moon 9/30/12♥